#drea talks

[amnesique]

Do you think Belly can have a successful friendship with Jeremiah if she chooses to be with Conrad? And vice versa...without any lingering conflict?

strictly from my point of view, and keep in mind that i prefer conrad and i relate to him a lot, jeremiah's passion for belly is just a fad, him trying to be with her is precisely because he noticed that his brother wants her and he is much too fed up with conrad always having everything. he himself said that conrad is considered "better", among any other things.

even though i have a little sympathy for jeremiah, considering that he calls belly his best friend and maybe he really is attached to her presence, i still think he's immature and exaggerated.

to answer your question, belly could have a friendship with conrad if she and jeremiah were together (because conrad is more mature and more attentive to what others feel than what he feels), but it would take a long, long time for jeremiah to be her friend if she were with his brother.

[hecate-spawn]

I have rizz or whatever but in a pretty loser way that will always end in me somehow dooming the relationship for myself. And it also only works 20% of the time.

Anyway this weekend has been a dumpster fire in the background but in only a mildly inconveniencing way. I guess. Background of the manga panel but the panel is mostly focused on hatsune miku

I feel like it's a set up for a yuri anime. Hopefully it is idk

[t33nunic0rnz]

post meet!

okay, so i just got home from my meet, it went okay, i got 6/9, really struggled with bench and got 2 red lights on my last deadlift attempt (soft lockout but it was not that heavy for me). just some initial thoughts, i am stoned so they might be all over the place: overall it was pretty fun, i definitely understand why people like competing. i had really strong squats bc i kept them super low since they have been a struggle lately, but everything felt super light and good there.

that gave me some confidence out the gate, which was nice.

then my bench opener was 57.5kg and it was ezpz, but i failed my next two, idk why exactly, just seemed like i didn't have it in me. my third attempt the bar bounced on my chest so it took ages to get the press command, and idk it just messed me up. i benched 140, failed 145 during my last heavy week, so maybe i already wasn't feeling confident, and my shoulder injury/hypermobility stuff is flaring up because i've been working so much and not standing. so that was definitely a factor, and it makes sense that i'd have a hard time. i had a harder time setting up in their rack and that played a factor. so lesson there is, stand more at work, keep up with pt exercises, and my bench will do better. and make sure i keep healthy boundaries with work and don't overwork myself.

i really want my bench to get better, but it's hard, it seems to be stagnating/getting worse. i was so close to really benching my bodyweight and now i feel like i'm further away, and im not sure why. probably stress from work and the above shoulder pain. i was feeling amazing about my bench in january, doing 145x2. I supposed it's not that big of a drop, it just sucks that it coincides with my first meet. but you win some, you lose some.

deadlifts honestly felt great, like i really wasn't worried about them at all, i am pretty confident in my deadlift these days. watching the videos back, while the lifts go up quickly and they're (mostly) well executed, i definitely was rushing my setup because of my nerves. to no one's surprise, i was kind gripping and ripping, which can bug my back, and isn't the best way to do the lift. so i think the best thing there is practice really. i just honestly didn't feel like i was rushing it all that much, but i really wasn't pulling slack enough. i think those bad habits will probably always creep up under times of anxiety (like right before a pr usually) if i keep practicing doing a thorough setup with heavier weights it will get easier to do. obvs.

honestly very proud of my deadlift, that is my best lift by far. and that weight felt so easy, it gets me super excited, like maybe i can actually lift more than that. so i will try and push myself when deadlifting a bit more and see what i can really do. though really, whatever i'm doing with my deadlift training seems to be working, so maybe i should just keep on keeping on.

so anyway, just some initial thoughts. i did have fun so i might do it again next year, but i didn't really see any other meets that i would want to do this year. garage gym competition is in a few weeks, but i don't feel energized to do that. i want to spend more time biking outside now that it's spring.

as far as future training goes, idk exactly, i still really love getting stronger, as long as my joints can keep up. would like to get leaner for the summer (in a healthy way). i have a couple programs kind of already ready to go, one is jeff nippard's powerbuilding 2 and the other is my usual stronger by science reps to failure bullshit. i know the sbs programming works for me, i have gotten way stronger since i started using it. but i was following powerbuilding this year when i was hitting those PRs, so who knows. what i think was going on there really is that i was stronger than i thought i was for a while, and i wasn't lifting heavy enough weight. i also think i made great gains from my last cycle in november, and i have been very consistent in my training since then. so really i don't think it came down to the programming. one thing that i love is overwarm singles, so i was adding that into his powerbuilding program for fun and (hopefully) gains and i want to keep doing that. i think that my peaking and rest time was just about right for this meet. i think if my shoulder had been in a better place i would have done better on bench.

either way i will probably just bike tomorrow, rest tuesday, and lift wednesday. by then i will likely have a feel for what i want to do programming-wise, and i'll get back to it. i think i will take a week or so off bench and shoulder stuff, and really focus on PT. i want to work on getting my squat deeper to protect my knee, which luckily doesn't feel bad post-meet.

i will probably write more later after i have had more time to think, for now i am going to puzzle and watch cozy vintage gaming youtube

[devoureddreaa]

this blog is very jjk infested, mb guys ;-;

[shiineru]

reading chainsaw man and trying to piece together theories makes me feel like an insane person. like no yeah totally pochita is actually the birth devil and reze is coming back and aki isn't actually dead and its all because of this one slight detail in the background and its all going to culminate in one big story about trauma. meanwhile no one has fucking mouths in the manga right now

[bang-bang-gang]

the thing about deonna in aew is that she's honestly presented as kind of a cringefail loser who keeps losing her big matches even though she's only lost like 3 matches since getting there (and to be fair the title shot and the owen hart match were pretty relevant i suppose)

but she absolutely carries herself like shes the main character and everyone should listen to HER and only pay attention to HER. like she doesnt really care about losing the owen or care about what toni is doing or what mercedes is doing or any of the belts. thunder rosa is the only person smart enough to pay attention to her sooo CLEARLY rosa is the greatest threat in this division and must be eliminated

[sillygrossgirl]

I think security guard at fucking poundland tried to touch me and stared at my tits🧍🏽‍♀️ we smiled at each other at the entrance and then he walked in behind me and i stopped and pretended to be looking at some crisps. Then i walk past him and he turns and looks just right at my tits and seems like hes trying to approach me, and i am looking straight ahead at items on shelves cus🧍🏽‍♀️ idk how to say urm leave me alone

And then i turn and am facing him but im turning to walk past and he literally was about to walk INTO me?? Like it was defo intentional but i stepped out of the way and he just yeah walked past lol and i was kike yeah take that, fool.

I am either way too paranoid or he was creepy. The initial smile was nice, i smile at ppl i make eye contact with most of the time. But then like following me in??

Another red flag is he literally walked right back outside. Like he had no reason to be inside. I would say it may be racial profiling but he's just as brown as me soooo

[dunkzillla]

chin in hands kicking my legs and thinking about him tonight

[cicadaemon]

Im reading 'Japanese Society at War' by Naoko Shimazu and honestly it is such a good read if you want a better idea of the impact of the Russo-Japanese war. I've been reading quite a few books about this war cause of the train commute home, but this is the first time I've read one that isn't stale and goes on to suck Emperor Meiji's dick.

Shimazu actually goes into the societal and cultural impact. It goes into how soldiers felt about the fighting. It actually talks about the people who's lives were impacted by all this. Really gonna help when I get really down and dirty with GK fanfic writing >:)

[mihotose]

tsuzuri likes how smooth kozue's hair is and at their beach training camp kozue put her camellia oil into tsuzuri's hair

[amnesique]

hi there 🩷 as much as i enjoy having ghost readers that like my writings, i'd love if you guys can give me a short review on it, especially the smut (bcs i'm kinda insecure about my way of writing smut), so i can know if there's something i can upgrade or if you enjoyed it

[hecate-spawn]

Watching Jaiden animations ADHD video ruined me because I keep thinking "if I had Adderall I could do this" and it's like. "Woah buddy. We don't even know if we have ADHD."

[t33nunic0rnz]

Alright, 6 days out, I finally did my openers today! I went for 220 squat/132.5 bench/305 deadlift. Those are my "confident" openers but I have conservative ones picked out too, and I have a couple days to decide. I want to hit all my lifts, that's the most important thing to me. I can go for PRs next time.

I put the whole outfit on too just so I'm prepared for what it will feel like to lift in it. The singlet is tight but it looks good on me. I feel like a real powerlifter!

I've had a terrible cough the last few nights and it's really affecting my sleep. I had to put off my openers until today because of it, and I really hope it's better by the weekend. I have cough medicine and NyQuil to help me rest. I'm also about to get my period, which means I'll be on my period for the meet. The research says that menstruation doesn't affect strength so I am not worried about it beyond the inconvenience of wearing period underwear or a tampon.

I am feeling a little nervous but not too bad, I believe I've done everything I can to prepare. I'm making lots of checklists so I don't forget anything for weigh in or competition. I've been talking to Max about it all a lot and he's very supportive, he'll be at the meet too. He's seen me lift at the gym before but I'll probably be nervous for him to watch me in competition. Caleb is going with me as my coach and he has a calming effect on me, he's a great cheerleader, so that will help.

Now I just need to rest this week and mentally prepare myself. I think I'll do some easy exercise throughout the week but limit my lifting. I'm pretty busy this week anyway so I won't feel crazy not going to the gym every day.

Anyway, here's my deadlift from today:

[noodel-doodel]

So you may have guest the name of my new au Corrupted Eclipse and its au of an au Corrupted Eclipse swap

The swapped roles with the ships so

Eclipse → Mitchey (she's corrupted)

Raaz → Cherry (he is now Mitchey's friend)

Swaps that not exist in this aus

Octavia → Gwen (he's the Bean)

Doppio → Nicky (the wild one)

Dreamer → Kea

Navy → Pearl

Sugar → Nightlight (that one is Canon 😊)

Eclipse, Raaz & Cherry @alicraft336

Mitchey, Gwen, Nicky, Kea & Pearl me

Octavia, Doppio & Sugar @evaundertale

Dreamer & Navy @star-sara

And Nightlight @sweetdaisymay

[lovely-v]

Rosencrantz and Guildenstern Are Dead is also a core part of my personality, and I absolutely would turn off a podcast if they called it mid. How dare they

THANK YOU i feel very validated by this. the first time I saw that movie it changed my whole life. and also it's so so funny.